Just so anyone might know, My new address is(You have to put the ladies name first because hers is the name on the mailbox. After wards put mine)
Sra. Carmen Sánchez
C/ Rio Noguera, 19
28803-Alcalá de Henares
Spain
let's hope it stays there
Hello. I know I havn’t updated for a while, (ok, a long long time), and I doubt any of you still read it. Right now I just need to pour. I hate this cold and empty feeling inside. I can hear Rachel saying that that’s something I have to fix, that I can’ rely on anyone else, but I know I can rely on other people for one thing. To make me feel cold and empty. I may not have to rely on people to be happy, but to make me feel low, they can sure do that. I think overall, I just don’t fit in Spain. I’m always causing problems. I’m too ambitious, too curious, too…vegetarian. Right now I really want to come home. I have to conquer that and make myself have fun to take advantage of the situation, but I seriously think I’ve got problems, because every family I’m with turns out bad, starts acting like they don’t want me. What is it I do? Are they pissed because they have to cook different meals for me? (although that wasn’t a problem the first month) All I want, more than anything, is to learn Spanish fluently. And the family says I can’t talk to them, that I have to learn by studying more. Hate to tell you, but you can’t improve your oral comprehension by studying. I used to complain about the states a lot. Yes, the states have lots to improve, but what most made me mad was the ignorant, arrogant, we’re-the-best-and-we-shouldn’t-bother-to-open-our-minds-to-other-cultures-because-we’re-already-perfect attitude. There are twice as many people like that here. I never thought I’d find myself defending the US, but when people talk like that it really ticks me off. If I hear one more person say “aqui se come bien” I’m going to puke. Yes in the states theres a lot of unhealthy eating, but theres also an entire health food movement that spain has never dreamt of. They say the Mediterranean diet is so healthy, but they’re so ignorant they’ve never bothered to look at what the Mediterranean diet is. News Flash- SPAIN DOESN’T EAT THE Mediterranean DIET!! You think that just because you’re close to the Mediterranean sea that you eat the Mediterranean diet? The Mediterranean diet is healthy, but you don’t eat it. Sorry. You eat white bread and pork. And anything decent you fry to death. The age of death has gotta be like 30 here. But aside from all this, I want to have a good relationship with my family. I don’t tell them my opinion about my food, I let them ramble on. I know I can’t blame them because they grew up during the Franco era, but just because you’re education ended at high school doesn’t mean your maturity has to stay there. You know in high school when an immature girl is mad at you they ignore you, immediately argue against anything you say, and use innocuous things that usually wouldn’t bother them as ammunition? That’s my host mom. The dads great. But I don’t get to see him. The mom has reached the level of annoying little sister(no reference to Hannah). Why do we even have to argue? Why can’t we just talk? I paid a lot to live here, I want to be living here. I apologize if my presence is inconvenient for you. What the heck is your problem? Get this. She walked in on me taking a crap. Didn’t bother knocking, just barged right in. And then she yelled at me about it. Truthfully, shouldn’t I be elling at you about this? Please, I just want a happy family that doesn’t see me as a pest but a friend. But now they ignore me. I say how are you and she doesn’t respond. And I seriously, from an unbiased point of view, have been trying to respect their house and rules. I had no idea I was doing something wrong(long story-she was mad because I didn’t turn the lights in the house on when I came home at night after going out(at least 12oclock) I however think she just realized that, oh, she has one more person to cook for). When people deny you’re existence, you suddenly don’t have a home anymore. How I miss my friends, happy faces and goofing around. Rob, Tyler, Alex, George, Steven, I miss you guys a lot. Not to exclude Tracy, Emily Amber, Talea, Rachel, and anyone else I may have accidentally forgot. I’m sorry for ever acting like an asshole to you, Alex. I keep thinking about all you guys. I miss you a lot.
